reality or fantasy..?

okay..

here is some of my real feeling..

what i really feel all this while..

for the first time..

i revealed it here..

hurm....

every time i want to like someone..

that every time always end up by he's having someone else..

and i don't like that..

i also don't want to disturb other's relationship..

so i come back home and open my lappy..

well..

my lappy wallpaper desktop is changmin, of course..

then i start to wonder alone..

why do i need to like someone if it turn out to be this way all the time..?

right..?

maybe this is not the time for me to find a lover or soul mate or something like that...

so..

why can't i just love CHANGMIN..?

why..?

when i said ' I LOVE CHANGMIN ' to public..

some person will say they love him too..

and some person will say i'm just too fanatic with him..

okay..

let me tell you..

when i depress or stress..

TVXQ songs made my mood..

when i'm happy..

they will sing me a happy songs..

don't tell me you guys never listen to music when you're in stress..

right??

did you know how much i treasure them..?

i treasure them deeply because they have every songs that will match

my mood..

no other artists have that..

and they are great..

they have a great voice..

and also..

they all are good looking..

how can i not like and love them..

right..??

when i like them too much..

a lot of speculation will arise..

haha..

how can i like my same race if all of them *who i like* are already in relationship

or have somebody else in their mind..?

i can't be like that..

i want someone that like me back and only me if they are..

hahaha.. *gatal..!*

i'm not being racist here..

but what i'm trying to say is..

i'm not yet found my 'lover' or 'patner'..

so..

can i love changmin in the mean time..??

i can, right..?

if i can't..

give me 10 reason for you to stop me..

or else..

i will still continue like him..

hahaha..

oh.. yeah..

changmin is also someone who can't reply my feelings towards him..

i know that..

but he's really humble with fans..

and at least..

i know he wont hurt me..

coz i'm only see him through my lappy..

hehehe..

if and only if i could experience meeting eye-to-eye with him once..

whoooaah..

i'll be glad..

=p

hahahaha..

peace no war..!!

(^_^)v